Forza Italia

Feeling sad over the result of today's match. Slovakia three, Italy two. This is the end of their journey for this South Africa World Cup 2010.

This is the first and the last match i could watch them play for this world cup in South Africa, 2010. It is rather unusual for me, that this year when the world cup started I have not been watching much of the matches at all. I tried to stay up for a midnight match of Italy vs Paraguay last week (or two weeks ago?). But ended up I was down, dead sleeping on the couch and only opened my eyes twice to check on the result. It was when Paraguay scored the first goal, then another time when the result has become 1:1.

i was playing hotel city when the match started at 10pm just now. i wasn't interested to watch as i know the Europe teams have been performing very bad lately. until it was after half time, i felt the urge to check out this match. my heart was telling me maybe i should watch and show my support to Italy.

Haiks! I couldn't believe that the journey of Champion for WC 2006 ends so early. we cheered, shouted and even cursed in front of TV for the blue. our emotions went up when they managed to score; it went down many times when the white scored and when one goal was dismissed for the reason of offside and another goal got blocked by the Slovakia player.

i haven't got to see Buffon play for this WC yet and now they have to pack and go home. not much of emotions / expressions was shown on Lippi's face, but from his frowning eyes, i can feel his worries, frustrations and desperation to win this match and lead the team forward.

i guess this SAWC is not for the teams that i have been supporting the most. France's gone, and now it's turn for Italy. i wonder if i still could see my heroes in the future world cup. to the wonderful footballers that got me so emotionally connected when i watch football: Totti, Canavaro, Del Piero, Buffon, Panucci and more, ti amo and keep moving forward! Forza Italia!

me?

hmmm... why do i feel bad or have low self esteem most of the time i come out from an interview? in fact, i already know i am not perfect but i know i can progress. there are more rooms of improvement and development for me i believe, to be a better person and to achieve something greater in my career. that's why i am there applying the job to grow with the company. i know of my weaknesses or i would say, what i am lack of. but i do not know much about my strength. like a saying, it is always easier to criticising people than giving compliments to a person. once S told me, i am a detailed person. that's part of what i am good at. i can see things that people usually do not see or might ignore it. (i am not referring this to any supernatural phenomenon though. ha!) N was right about me having split personality because of my birth date. i do believe one's decision/action/attitude may change as according to different situations. for example, i may be very patient at an occasion but not at another one. this leads to the question of purpose, what am i doing that requires me being patience? why should i be patience? is the outcome of which the process requires patience achievable and/or desirable?

that's a reason why i do not usually define or identify myself as a certain characteristic or personality. because i believe in change. i trust change is very essential in our lives. being flexible and adaptable to a positive development and environment, we must not limit ourselves to progression and to a better person we can be.

Wesak morning @ Broga

when it comes to Wesak Day, i usually drive my mother to temples for blessings and prayers. it's rather different than the past years, this year i had a very early wake up in the morning, met up my friend at cheras-kajang highway (along the roadside after 90cents toll), and we headed south to the famous broga hill.

just a brief on directions to broga hill:
from kajang go all the way straight to saujana impian, keep driving until you see a junction turning to left with signboard written 'rinching / semenyih'; remain driving on the main straight road you will pass by the university of nottingham, only after some distance you will see a signboard written 'broga' that leads you turning to the left; follow the curvy road and drive all the way into the broga village, you will eventually see the oil palm plantation at your left and a rabbit farm at your right. find a parking, and yes, you may walk into the oil palm plantations and start your hiking at broga hill!

the crowd was huge on this public holiday! we had to park our cars far away from where the entrance is and walked into the plantations. along the hike i made a few stops to catch my breath. it was relaxing and fun because i did not force myself to move faster to reach the peak. finding your pace and moving up as according to your capacity is important because that only makes yourself suffer if you feel exhausted/pass out when you go over your body limit. this time i managed to reach the second peak that breaks my previous record. as you may not know, i felt dizzy last time after the first peak and i had to stop and rest while waiting for the others to continue hiking to other peaks.

half way to the first peak!

sun's up; reaching to the second peak :)

we rested for a while on the peak and enjoyed the breeze before we slowly walked down from the hill. it was challenging to walk down because that was when i felt slight pain at my ankle. blame it on the kgsss that i have put on recently. after that we went for a quick breakfast at a chinese kopitiam nearby, the tauke said it has never been so crowded especially during the weekdays! even the staff were not able to clean up the dishes and leftovers of the previous customers. we grabbed some roti bakar and wantan mee, then there ended our morning hike at broga hill.

this roti bakar was good.

darn, for the first time i got stung by a leech! only discovered this when i was about to take shower. the blood stain had dried and from it i could see the shape of a leech! freaked out.

hmmm this is weird.

i lie on my bed, my mind seem unstoppable from thinking, calculating, and analyzing. i realise this happens every time i come back from insurance meeting. and also every time after i get some lecture from him which usually, turns to be very motivational and inspirational. i should take him as my mentor, perhaps.

my brain cells have been very numb and dull / inactive when i am working, i guess. (because majority of tasks i have been handling are so routine and less challenging). but the figures and calculations, terms and conditions, have successfully triggered my brain cells to functioning again. lots of queries and assumption i come out with, and sometimes i think i am thinking too much and asking too many questions. haha!

i don't know if this causes me insomnia or i am just too excited /  interested in it, so i wake up from my bed, switch on this desktop again, and am sitting here alone typing this post now.

when my brain works, it continues brainstorming and functioning. but when it gets dull, it takes time to re-activate i guess. ha!