me?

hmmm... why do i feel bad or have low self esteem most of the time i come out from an interview? in fact, i already know i am not perfect but i know i can progress. there are more rooms of improvement and development for me i believe, to be a better person and to achieve something greater in my career. that's why i am there applying the job to grow with the company. i know of my weaknesses or i would say, what i am lack of. but i do not know much about my strength. like a saying, it is always easier to criticising people than giving compliments to a person. once S told me, i am a detailed person. that's part of what i am good at. i can see things that people usually do not see or might ignore it. (i am not referring this to any supernatural phenomenon though. ha!) N was right about me having split personality because of my birth date. i do believe one's decision/action/attitude may change as according to different situations. for example, i may be very patient at an occasion but not at another one. this leads to the question of purpose, what am i doing that requires me being patience? why should i be patience? is the outcome of which the process requires patience achievable and/or desirable?

that's a reason why i do not usually define or identify myself as a certain characteristic or personality. because i believe in change. i trust change is very essential in our lives. being flexible and adaptable to a positive development and environment, we must not limit ourselves to progression and to a better person we can be.